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Internships [or] Men Who Want to Marry Me [25 May 2007|01:43am]
[ mood | amused ]

So I totally had my interview for the internship at Cox. Pretty exciting. I think I did pretty well, and it seemed like the people interviewing me liked me. So here's hoping that will work out. Especially since they said that my trip to Canada won't affect the hiring.

In other news, apparently I am hot to men from Gabon. And I quote:

Theo, I had a man look at the picture of Anita Box on my wall and say "Someday I want to marry a woman like that." And my roommate laughed and said "He's beautiful, isn't he?" and the man said, "yeah, she his" and my roommate told him Anita was actually a man in drag, and he freeeeaaaaaked out and couldn't believe it. Yvon from Gabon totally wants you to have his babies, dude.

To give a bit of backstory: Claire went to France to teach school children and a bunch of us at Truman sent her a care package. I included a picture of me as Anita Box since she enjoyed my drag shows.

This is the picture in question:


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I'm into kinky shit...like Doritos [23 Apr 2007|07:51am]
[ mood | amused ]

Japan sends its regards. Enjoy your crotch noogie.
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Hos taking the streets...the night is full of spit and glitter... [19 Feb 2007|02:15pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

So, this weekend was pretty fabulous. For those of you who don't know I went to The Midwest Bisexual Lesbian Gay Transgendered Allies Coalition Conference, or Alphabet Soup for short. It was in Minneapolis. It began horribly early on Friday morning....

Driving to MN wasn't bad. We made really good time and it took less time than we expected. When we got there we went and got registered and all that good stuff, and we went to our first workshop. I went to a workshop on Genderqueer, which is a really cool subject, but the speaker wasn't good. He only talked about cultures that were cool with alternative genders. And while this is interesting, it doesn't really affect our society now, especially because most of these cultures haven't been around for a long time. After that, we went to the opening ceremonies, which were the usual opening ceremonies. Then we listened to Loren Cameron, who is a FtM who takes photos of other transsexuals. He was an amazing photographer, and his photos were AMAZING! Later that night I went to the Homocore Bandfest. The first band Central Standard was pretty good, and really funny. The lead singer had a video of her blowing gum bubbles in her vagina. The second band, Gay Beast, was horrible. They were noise-experimental, which is a genre that I like on occasion, but this was not such an occasion. They also took FOREVER to finish their set. But then, there was the awesomeness that was Scream Club. If you like Le Tigre and Peaches you will love Scream Club. They were fucking amazing, buy their CD now. On the way back to the hotel my friend Deidra and I stopped by Burger King to get some food (it was about 2 a.m.) and the place was full of drunk ass U of M students. The end result was two guys fighting and getting all bloody. All with a cop across the street. That was interesting to say the least.

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A picture by Loren Cameron

The amazing Scream Club

On Saturday we went to some workshops, the ones I went to were "Behind the Blindfold: The Leather Community," "Safer Sex/Safer Kink," and "Dude That's So Gay: Violence, Sexism, Homophobia, and Language." All of the workshops I went to were pretty amazing, especially the "Safer Sex/Safer Kink," I learned A LOT of good information. The presenters of the workshop were the owners of The Smitten Kitten. That night was Margaret Cho, which was about the funniest damn thing I've seen in forever. She is one funny lady. After the comedy we learned something rather unfunny...liquor stores close at 10 in Minnesota. Despite this setback we had an amazing time at the dance later. I met some cool people and did some dancing. But the drag show was crap, not going to lie.

The divine Ms. Cho

Sunday wasn't too exciting, we were going to go to some workshops but they all looked boring. And yeah, that's about it for the conference. We did stop by the Smitten Kitten and I made some purchases.  Now I'm back in KV...le sigh... I really liked Minneapolis, if it wasn't for the cold I would consider living there, especially because so many companies are located there, including Target and Best Buy. Oh well, I might end up there anyway...
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I guess I have some updating to do.... [02 Feb 2007|04:26am]
[ mood | chipper ]

So let's see...how have things been...

I've been sick, but I'm finally over it. I feel like I've been getting fatter, but been told I look skinnier. My classes are going well, except for Chemistry which is so boring I want to gouge my eye out with a spoon.

But the most exciting thing is that Jeremy and I are back together again, so YAY! :)

He was going to come up this weekend, but experienced car and weather trouble, so he won't be able to make it. :(

Despite this, it should still be a fun weekend. Jim Gaffigan is performing tonight, and then the whole weekend is full of parties.

I also think that I am going to try and get involved with Filmmakers Club. I'll try for the acting part, but I think I am going to go more for the editing side. I realize I'm not really that good of an actor, but I do love working with video editing software.

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Blog? Ok, if you insist... [05 Jan 2007|02:32am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Ok, yeah, it's the new year! HOORAY! Let's hope for some better times, eh? My new years was uber fabulous, fun times at Jeremy's new place. I am in Carthage, which is totally shitty, but oh well. Tomorrow I am going to be a fool and easily part with my money to buy a new MP3 player, which I will probably get bitched at for. Oh well...my dad can get mad if he wants.

Things might be changing soon...or rather they may be reverting...more on that as it comes...

Well, not much to say except HAPPY NEW YEARS!

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To the left to the left... [22 Dec 2006|05:35am]
[ mood | tired ]

So grades are in:

Queer Theory: A
World Lit: A
Public Speaking : B
French: C

So I'm kind of going WTF on the last two, but I have a high enough GPA to keep my scholarship, so oh well.

My MP3 player has crapped out...I think I'm going to have to reformat it...


Work sucks mega extra super hard.

Otherwise I am enjoying Tulsa...what little I get to see of it because I'm always at Target...

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The Return [17 Dec 2006|03:04am]
[ mood | happy ]

So, finals are finished. I think I did pretty good on my finals, so yay! Went home to C-Town...things are fine there. Gavin stayed the night en route to OK, so finally someone from school has seen my house. LOL I didn't really do much in Carthage, mostly hung out with the fam.

Came back to Tulsa today...it was a good feeling to drive into town. Saw my cousin, which was exciting as always. I do love her. Then it was fun times in T-Town! Kristel's birthday party was tonight in Sand Springs...talk about hard to get to. We had the rink to ourselves for a while, and drinking was OK(well, I couldn't, but I was the only minor). But when other people showed up, apparently it was a problem. And a parent said they would call the cops...so we got kicked out. I feel like a BADASS! Then we had a wonderful dinner, and some of us went to a show downtown which was pretty amazing.

Tomorrow is going to be fun, I am going on a date-esque thing, and then clubbing in the vespertimes!

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I get no pleasure from hugging trees..... [12 Dec 2006|12:55am]
[ mood | calm ]

This weekend was fun, I went to Columbia. Went to a party, met some friends, hooked up with a hot guy, shopped (well, window at least), some good stuff. Fun times at the ATO house Saturday. I have no money, therefore I have no underwear...YAY FOR GOING COMMANDO!

Finals suck...hard.

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Early Resolutions [02 Dec 2006|04:39pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

1) Stop writing blogs drunk...they end up being fucking Emo as shit.

2) Stop drinking when I'm stressed, because it only leads to public breakdowns.

3) Stop worrying about things until I actually need to worry about them.

I love the girls at Sugar, if you live in the NEMO area fucking go there. Support free trade and local businesses all in one trip.

And I love actual fortunes:

"People will find it difficult to resist your propositions."

Which naturally lends itself to the classic tag line IN BED!

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Funny... [02 Dec 2006|05:28am]
[ mood | depressed ]

how the person you want not to see and to see more than anyone shows up at the party you're at.

With another person...

I want what everyone else is afforded....the ability to feel. I am sick and tired of having to be Miss Mary Fuckin Sunshine all the goddamn time. Why can't I just feel like shit once in a while. That's a lie, I feel like shit all of the time, why can't I be allowed to feel it. I fucking cried in front of someone this morning, because in three days what would be my mom's 50th birthday is going to occur. I started to bawl, and then he went in to the party and told everyone. Why does this bother me, I don't know. It just does, because everyone was talking about it. Goddamn it! I fucking ripped my favorite sweater. Tonight was supposed to be good, tonight was supposed to be good, tonight was supposed to be good...

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Why... [29 Nov 2006|12:09pm]
[ mood | confused ]

can I only seem to get in weird situtaions with gay men?

Am I too big of a wishful thinker?

Am I just not able to see things as they really are?

Or are they really as confusing as they seem?

Maybe he feels the same way?

Maybe not.

Just when I thought I had found something good...why can't it just be clear cut?

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put another notch in my lipstick case... [21 Nov 2006|12:02pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

As I posted earlier, I had an accident and my headlight got busted. A week after this happened (because I am lazy/busy) I took it into the shop....it's still there. I should have left Kirksville around 2 hours ago. I am pissed. I want to go home. Gaaaaaarrrrr.....

On the upside, this past weekend was AMAZING! BOB Prom and all other types of fun. I learned that I am (in the first definition of the word) a complete sodomite, as I have done everything that counts as sodomy. ROCK! I also have checked another box from Gayle Rubin's diagram, and that makes me happy. Though I am afraid of the opposite of my previous situation coming true....

Oh yeah, I got Girl Monster, and it is AMAZING!

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EXCITEMENT! [08 Nov 2006|07:15am]
[ mood | excited ]

So YAY! Dems take house, homophobe gets beaten for state rep, stem cell research passes, a whole host of other political goodies!

PRISM Dance is SATURDAY! And I'm so not ready for the show, but I am excited for the possibility of hooking up...peut-etre...

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My results from the Quality Woman Test! [05 Nov 2006|05:12am]
[ mood | amused ]

Have you ever wondered what a patriarchal chauvanistic asshole has to say about you being a quality woman? I know I have, and thus, I took the test to determine my womanly charms. Drum roll please...

Plain Jane

You scored 40% Attractiveness, 71% Femininity, and 70% Incidentals!

You scored as Plain Jane.
You're at least moderately feminine in your mannerisms and personality,
but unfortunately, no one gives you the time of day. Try your best to
improve your looks.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 0% on Attractiveness
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 75% on Femininity
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 25% on Incidentals

Link: The Quality Woman Test written by ANewProject on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

I would personally like to believe that I am a little more than a plane jane, but obviously this is "science" (as he states in the intro) and who am I to contradict a big strong man?
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I'm a PIMP! [29 Oct 2006|05:53am]
[ mood | chipper ]

Yay for Halloween!

This year,  I needed a costume fast, so I decided to be my roommate Kendall, so I donned the "Kendall Suit" and headed off to party.

The results:

Me making a straight guy feel awkward...all right! Though I have to say, these looks are pretty much the same as when most straight guys dance with girls, so I like to "pay it forward" so to say...

This birthday weekend was much better than last I say...good times...

And I just saw Richard Gere and Debra Messing get it on....alllllll riiiiiiiight!

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Happy Birthday to Me! [26 Oct 2006|03:10am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Happy Birthday to Me! So yeah, today is my birthday and I am no longer a teenager, let there be rejoicing!

And, despite the fact that it's quite a ways away, I am so ridiculously uber pysched about studying abroad in London, and, like the lame ass I am, I have started scoping out places to party. Here are the two coolest thus far:

Club Motherfucker

I can't wait!

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It's so easy to laugh, it's so easy to hate, it takes guts to be gentle and kind... [20 Oct 2006|05:41am]
[ mood | blah ]

All right, so my title has nothing to do with what I'm going to post, but I was listening to the song, so oh well!

To begin, yeah, it's been a while, sorry for anyone who looks forward to reading these. Second, god, school is kicking my ass. And it's not like my classes are even that hard, I'm just lazy.

So, I guess I can post the somewhat exciting stuff...last weekend was midterm break, finally, a respite from the evilness that is Truman. I decide on St. Louis for my destination and go with my friend Fiona. As we are driving along, everything is going fine, The Unicorns is blaring and we're chatting away. And then it all goes wrong. Suddenly I hear squeeling tires, I slam on my breaks, but not in time. I rear end a guy. His damage is only on the bumper, so I get to pay a lot so he can replace it. My damage, on the other hand, actually needs to get fixed, as one of my headlights is completely busted out. Oh well, should count my blessings, as no one was hurt.

Other than that though, it was an amazing weekend. Fun times, walking around Webster-Groves, hanging out in hookah bars, going to gay clubs and actually dancing with hot guys, shopping (H & M baby!), amazing food, ANI FUCKING DIFRANCO, Fiona's amazing friends, and oh so much more. In spite of the accident, I am glad I went. It was much needed. But I left my camera in my friends car....gaaaaar....

Coming back to Kirksville was, of course, a pain, but oh well. I'm here, and things are...OK actually. I don't really know what to say, I don't particularly feel much of anything. I suppose I am just going to stay at Truman for practical reasons, yeah I'm ready to move on, but it's not going to happen so I guess I'll just enjoy it for what it's worth. I have my tentative schedule for next semester planned out, and it is actually looking to be somewhat enjoyable, except I will be taking chemistry, with a fucking lab...

So, here it is:

Writing Workshop: Non-Fiction - Humor (How fucking KICK ASS!)
Mass Communications
Principles of Communication
Chemistry for Contemporary Living (aka Chem for dumb asses)
Feminist Social Philosophy

So, it's looking to be fun. But this also makes me think about what I need to graduate. English is no problem, 5 more classes and I've got it, it's going to be COMM that kills me. Since I started a year late without having taken Public Speaking I am hellaciously behind. I need 12 hours of general comm, 19 hours of public comm, and then 9 hours of comm electives. To put that into perspective, it's 40 hours for the comm degree, my English only needs 31. So I'll probably have to stay into my 5th year, especially coupling in that I want to Study Abroad in London. Oh well, it will be worth it to go a little longer here to study abroad in London.

And it's 5:40, I haven't slept, and I have class at 10:30, what is wrong with my sleeping?!

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I am not a pretty girl... [24 Sep 2006|11:31pm]
[ mood | blank ]

So, everything has been really confusing lately. I have a test tomorrow for LAS Calc, and I have no idea in fuck what I am really going to be tested over. Great.  I did have a pretty awesome time at the Prim Rose bid night party, but it ended up being a pretty confusing night as well, but as I said, it seems to be the name of the game. Gar, sometimes I wish my life could somwhat resemble normal every once in a while. But, for the first time in a long time, I don't really feel anything...

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Fun, but pointless [23 Sep 2006|12:02pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Not going to lie, it's pretty cool to look like Grace Kelly. I also must look a lot more feminine than I thought, considering it's pretty much girls for the first five. Oh well!

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crazy! [21 Sep 2006|01:21am]
[ mood | confused ]

Life is a tad bit crazy at the moment. My classes are kicking my ass, and the thing is, they're not that hard I am just completely unmotivated to do anything. I don't really like most of my classes, except for Queer Theory and Family Stories (sort of). I have no idea what in the fuck is going on in LAS Calc. Is it math? Is it history? Hell if I know. My french class is a bitch, enough said.

My scholarship job is going to prove to be tough, I have to do some prelim research for my professor, so that is going to be less than fun.

I am enjoying doing the PR for the French Film Festival though, plus, I'm getting paid.

And once again, the old familiar "Kirksville Blues" has set in. I go out because I don't want to stay in, but that's not what I want to do either. There's always this feeling that something is missing, and I don't know what it is. Last year I thought it was because I was single, but I realize that's not what it is. I don't know why I feel that way, if I did maybe I could do what I need to fix it. Is it Kirksville? I don't seem to feel this way when I'm other places. The unhappiness I feel in Carthage is different from the unhappiness I feel in Kirksville. I was happy in Tulsa, but was that just situational? I really don't think so, but I'm not sure. Is the problem with me? I know that I have issues that I need to deal with, but, if that's it, wouldn't I feel the same way other places? I actually think it's the combination of the two, but would transfering be the right decision? I honestly have no idea...Part of me really wants to transfer, but part of me doesn't. My biggest attachment to Truman is the bonds I've made with people, it would be hard to part with them. And money of course, but I haven't applied to TU, so I really can't know how that will work out. I have a lot of stuff to sort out, but it will eventually get resolved. I know I should probably go to UCS or something, but I hate going to counseling...gar...

In other news (well it actually happened a while ago, but I'm writing about it now), I am rereading Grendel which I bought during the summer. It was a copy from my high school, which I stamped the "property of" stamps in a couple of years ago. Funny how things can come back to you when you least expect it...

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